Remembering

There is no way to tell you now of the pain you caused to me,
You've moved onto another world; I suffer, you don't see.
My body may have grown up, but a child remains within,
Remembering the torture, the agony of your sin.
There were so many of us; how did it last so long?
The anguish and the brutalness of the road we travelled on.
Alone I sat and cried each night, for freedom I would pray
Just to be within a family, to live a normal day.

The smells, the sounds, the hatred, remain here with me still,
They will not set me free of you, I guess they never will.
Your face appears here in my home, I thought you'd gone for good,
They said they'd throw the key away, I really think they should.
A battle in order to survive, another day I fight
Because you chose to take from me my innocence, my right,
One day I'll wake and there won't be another thought of you,
When I can be a loving Mum, you see that's what I do.

I try to give my children love and tenderness and care
But when they cry your twisted face somehow will reappear.
Don't think you're here forever, locked up within my mind,
You are a man so evil, twisted and unkind.
There is no place for men that do the wicked things you do
An eternity of torment I hope you will go through.
But for now they keep you locked away from children just like me
Their happy smiling faces I know you will never see.

Remember though that one day even you will have to die
And many, oh so many of us, will come to say goodbye.
Not just to the body that will rot below the ground
But to the thought of knowing that you are still around.
Maybe then upon that day each of us will know,
As we look into each other's eyes, all thoughts of you can go.

Sheena